I am strong.

myspace is cool

2004-09-17T21:05:25Z

this is crazy! i just got one of those myspace things and i'm checkin out renee's and i see layne on her "friends list". so i check out laynes myspace and justin's on there! then i get a myspace email from some guy so i check out his myspace and nikki is in his friends list so i go to her site and this guy derek is on there who i used to go to church with and renee is also on her friends list. man.. maybe its not as wierd as i think it is. its just wierd for me runnin into all these people. i wonder how many other people i know.

mmm

2004-09-16T21:59:00Z

My angst tastes like...

Vanilla
Find your angst's flavor

Simple and true, your angst is just the amount of any normal person. What's more, you exercise an extremely honest and healthy way of dealing with it. Many people could use maturity and wisdom like yours. Your angst may be that you don't get along with your boss or a family member is having health problems, but either way it's always something transient and survivable that you cope with and use as a step on your way to becoming a better person. If there's one problem with your angsting, it's that you may tend to take this matter-of-fact, dutiful approach to all things. Maybe you should cut loose a little now and then so you can have some wild fun and adventure to balance out your angst. Remember that life needs its up as well as its downs and treat yourself to a little reward for your work.

asthenophobia @ 2004-09-16T16:42:00

2004-09-16T21:42:23Z

My lj wedding by chynafox
username
age
city
you will marry	chocho450
flower girl	prayitbetheend
best man	blingblingpyro
bridesmaid	ladyinsatin
you will have your last fling with	alektorophobia
registrar	rhodesgomer
secretly wants to marry you themself	asthenophobia
date of the wedding	March 20, 2045
number of times you do it on your wedding night	36

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love stinks.. yea yeaaaaaaa

2004-04-14T00:27:08Z

well, thanks to the kid, i got sick. i got to sleep all day monday and half of today but i can't miss band class. i'm such a fuckin dork. we have a big thing comin up thursday so i really shouldn't miss that class.

in other news, i think i'm going back to memphis sound. i think it'd be good. i told my friend kate and she had a spasm. haha shes cute. i'm a mess. corps always straightens ya out. maybe they can fix my paranoia.. i know they'll fiz my self-confidence issues. cuz i was hott when drum corps was over ;) i hope i'm doin the right thing.. and i can always train for kickboxings on the weekend and keep my mind off these girls. i can't help that i love her. and i doubt i'll stop. i just hope we don't fade because this whole situation isn't fair. but life isn't fair and shes smart so maybe we're doin the right thing.

i'ma go beat zelda cuz i'm a geek.

asthenophobia @ 2004-04-08T19:59:00

2004-04-09T01:18:33Z

lil maggit is sick :( probably from all the easter candy shes been eating..hm

my french horn buddies are comin over tomorrow and we're gunna be dorks and play zelda. the first one. because i'm a loser and can't get past the dodongo's cavern.. pfft.um anyways, that should be fun hangin out with them outside of the band room.

barney fuckin sucks. maggies watching it on the couch. and i have the urge to throw something very heavy at the television. but that would make the kid cry and shes already pitiful as it is.. so i won't.

oh i gotta go, the grents are back home and they brought food.

"why don't you levitate some terds out of the litter box!"

2004-04-05T02:19:05Z

freak engine was really really good friday. 'how bout a cup of shut the fuck up??!' hahaha and i'm glad we got there early enuff to get seats. my lil freshmen friends liked it :)

oh man, sharons moms spaggetti is the BEST evar. when she told us she was gunna cook it for dinner i think i peed alittle.. mmmm good shtuff.!!

and i finally got drunk. it had been too long.. like weeks..maybe even a month! anyways, it was fun after a long hard day of moving boxes and shit from the apartment lol. waking up early is STUPID.. thats why we slept till six this afternoon. heh heh

i had a really good weekend.:)

asthenophobia @ 2004-03-26T18:35:00

2004-03-27T00:35:48Z

haha grandaddy calls memphis light gas and water, "light gas and robbery"

hm.

2004-03-26T07:15:52Z

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid:	Moderate
Schizoid:	Low
Schizotypal:	Moderate
Antisocial:	Low
Borderline:	Moderate
Histrionic:	Low
Narcissistic:	Low
Avoidant:	Moderate
Dependent:	High
Obsessive-Compulsive:	Low
-- Personality Disorder Test - Take It! --

she eats ALL THE TIME

2004-03-25T23:53:24Z

haha maggie likes playing with tools more than barbies :) and she likes to pick weeds with me and feed em to the goats. i love that kid

its beautiful outside!

you're late..

2004-03-20T17:21:10Z

one of the neighbors had a fire in their back yard.. i think it started with the grill. anyways, me and g'dad went to the goat area to go look at it. i'm really glad it didn't spread to the goat pin. their whole backyard is black.. haha grandaddy was kinda makin comments.. they weren't laughing. "and that was a new fence too.." "yep" hahaha. i wonder if that dog was in the fire...

i also talked to the g'dad about the billy goat. he says its available if we want it. i want it, he wouldn't mind, but g'ma.. she doesn't really want it. shes afraid it'll lead the girls out of the pin like the last one did.. but i don't think he will. i wonder if hes nice.. i could make goat milk and cheese?

two more days, counting this one, of spring break.. i really don't want to go back. only 9 more weeks, though... then summer and i'll be free! i need summer.

asthenophobia @ 2004-03-19T14:04:00

2004-03-19T20:07:03Z

we might be getting a billy goat :)

asthenophobia @ 2004-03-15T22:57:00

2004-03-16T04:57:32Z

What infamous serial killer are you?

Ed Gein

You've inspired classic films such as Psycho, Silence of The Lambs, and The Texas Chainsaw Massacre. You dug up graves of the recently dead and would try to invoke your mothers spirit into them. You would make furnature and clothing from the carcass, and cannibalized the dead.

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asthenophobia @ 2004-03-02T19:28:00

2004-03-03T01:29:56Z

United airplane commercial uses gershwins rhapsody in blue as their music!

i just got finished watchin singin' in the rain. i really liked it! :) i'ma dork

maybe its cuz i mumble?

2004-03-01T23:25:21Z

school was aight today. .. you know that thing people that sit behind you do..with the basket under your desk and they kick it or something, or if they have a song in their head and they're humming and stuff...and kickin and bouncing the basket under MY desk. i thought i was gunna kill him. but uh, other than that, good day. the g'rents and the kid picked me up from school and we went to krystal. maggie discovered the play place. lol omg we had sooo much fun! at first she was scared cuz she didn't know where to go (it was her first time on one of these things) but two lil boys came in and showed her the way. dudes, we were in there for ever. and then i decided to climb up the slide and surprise her. i didn't think i could fit, but i can! and i slid back down and it was awsome. i forgot how much fun those things were! she was so happy. maybe if we go alot, she she can loose some weight haha.

when we got back, i ran around with my goats for a while. i love em. and ezmerelda jr. came up to me and let me pet her.. shes so pretty.. i was just like "wow" cuz shes never really liked me that much.. it was heart warming :)
then dixie came and chased her away. she gets jealous. haha. i moved a bench in there for them to jump around and play on. while i was lettin them run free for a little while, i sat on the big iron gate thing and i was lookin out to the pasture, and it looks like a painting. it so pretty. i think they're wheat stalks but yeah... really pretty. i wish i were good at photography. i woulda liked to take a picture of that. haha dixie was runnin through em and shes the same color. lol,it was funny. i don't really know why... haha

dammit, i had somethin really interesting to talk about, but i forgot it. DAMMIT! i'll think of it again..

..almost had it..

was it music? fuck it. it think it was about people. somethin to do with my subject it think. yeah it was.. but i don't remember what i was gunna say.

AAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

2004-02-28T03:07:38Z

our house alarm's battery is low so its beeping very LOUD once every 30 SECONDS and its driving me insane...

asthenophobia @ 2004-02-23T21:12:00

2004-02-24T03:42:11Z

got my act scores back! um.. not bad for my first time.. i KNOW i can do better. and i will! k..% mean " this means that 88% of the ACT-tested students scored at or below..the blah ble blah blah" yeah

ENGLISH: 27(88%)
-usage/mechanics: 13(80%)
-rhetorical skills: 15(95%) bitch!!
MATHEMATICS SUCK: 18(42%)
-pre algebra/elm. alg.: 09(40%)
-Alg./Coord. Geometry: 09(41%)
-plane geometry/trig.:10(52%)
READING: 22(60%)
-Soc.Studies/Sciences: 10(51%)
-Arts/Literature:12(64%)
SCIENCE: 18(31%)
Composite: 21 (57%)

soooo, i jus gotta work on some stuff, and i'll be set for the one in june.

i went to the chinese restarante with the g'pops .. i had already eatin before i went and was full. but i wanted to go cuz hes a cool guy and i didn't want him to be all alone. so i went and it was so good! but.. i shouldn't have eatin cuz now it looks like i have a baby and i'm about to spew cuz i'm so stuffed with bad food.. oh i'm whinning!! but i don't CARE! HAH. i'm done.

whose goin to my concert tomorrow? :) ..i don't blame ya. but seriously if u change ur mind, it starts at 7:30 in our auditorium. i think its gunna good. i'll be in my lil uniform..hope it still fits..heh :( i'ma fatty... a sexy fatty! hah

oh at the restarante the placemats have the chinese zodiac thingy thangs.. and i'ma hare: "talented and affectionate, yet shy, you work well with people and do well in business. Most compatible with the ram, pig(booboo), and dog, and least compatible with the rat and rooster.

oh i'm teh tired. i slept in school today.. some of 1st, a lil in 2nd and begining of 3rd period. i shouldn't but i had too... i would have died if i didn't. dude. i should go to sleep now so i don't have to do it again... nite :)

heh heh

2004-02-19T01:33:08Z

Your wings are DRAGON wings. Massive and
covered in scales, they shimmer with strength
and magic. They are the most obvious display of
your power - though it runs equally throughout
your heart and mind. You are uncompromising and
grave, with a profound sense of justice. You
have firm ideas about what is right and what is
wrong and set out to fix what problems you can.
You realize that you are more capable of
dealing with life and evil than most, and as
such you see it as your responsibility to
protect those who cannot defend themselves. You
have existed since antiquity and as such you
are wise far beyond your years in this
lifetime. While you strive for fairness and
peace, if someone should steal from your cave
of treasure (though not all that glitters is
gold) or compromise the happiness of you or one
who is close to you - they have signed their
death warrant. You have a mighty vengeance and
will unleash it upon such people immediately
and mercilessly. Arguing with you is
useless...you rarely back down and are known
for holding firm in your beliefs. Sometimes you
feel intensely burdened with the troubles of
others...acting as a Guardian can get so
wearisome. But you never give up...you see it
as your life's mission. Often very introverted,
you can be so smart...it's scary. Such a
combination of intelligence, creativity, power,
beauty, and magic is often intimidating to
those around you - who are also unlikely to
understand you. Arrogant, proud, overserious,
and sometimes a bit greedy or obsessed with
whatever treasure you choose to pursue...you
have enchanted people for centuries, and will
continue to do so.

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woah dude

2004-02-17T00:54:38Z

Get to know the REAL you by crash_and_burn
Your Name
You Are A:	Dreamer
Your Favorite Band/Song	Barenaked Ladies - One Week
You Like To Read:	Everything
You Firmly Believe In:	Orange juice
Everyone Thinks You Are:	A complete loser
You Were Conceived:	In the mall
You Will Marry:	Your half-sister/brother

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asthenophobia @ 2004-02-11T18:05:00

2004-02-12T00:32:45Z

i went to michaels today and got a nice sized canvas and acrylic(sp?) paint! and a whole bunch of paint brushes. i'm making a surprise for the booboo. hehe! but not on the canvas. thats for me haha ;) i'm excited, its gunna be fun. i just can't let maggie see any of it...well..maybe i'll let maggie do a lil bit of it. cuz shed have fun and she loves booboo.

they're passing out roses again at gtown for valentines day. blah. maybe i can skip school that day. or maybe it'll snow!!! its sposed to snow tonite!!! snow day!!!...hopefully.

this week has been winterfest week ..i think. monday was bum day, tuesday was cowboy/girl day, today was super hero day, tomorrows class distinction day and friday is school spirit day. its funny seeing the stuff people wear...i have no idea was juniors are supposed to wear tomorrow. someone was quailman from doug. and i also saw santa clause today hahaha that was cute.

ummm i'm gunna go play sims.

my self portrait is awsome ;)

2004-01-30T01:59:52Z

so i'm in this art thing, spectrum, and the next findraiser is buttons. like the kind with pictures or sayings that u can pin on to your clothes or bags or flesh. so if anyone has an idea for a cool button that they would buy for a dollar, lemme know and we'll make it. but, it can't be anything 'dirty' hahaha. i think i'ma make instrument buttons for band members, i think they'd buy em. it'll be fun. i love art.

my lil maggit

2004-01-29T02:12:28Z

okay so we didn't play barbies, she decided she wanted to pretend to be a puppy named collin? haha and i had to make up a story about collin the puppy and she acted it out. its was cute. then we were kittens, but the kitten decided to go watch cartoons. lol. i kinda like this kid ;)

asthenophobia @ 2004-01-28T19:35:00

2004-01-29T01:35:01Z

maggie is adorable. i really should spend more time with her. we're about to play barbies!! hahaha...hm. i wonder if grandmother knows she makes the girls kiss.

asthenophobia @ 2004-01-21T20:11:00

2004-01-22T02:11:37Z

how the hell do i put pictures on here?

victim

2004-01-21T21:53:45Z

these people are coming over to talk to me after school tomorrow. hope it helps.

sucks when u feel like everyone's against you.

2004-01-21T02:28:44Z

i applied for walgreens. and i talked to my gma for a while today. we discussed gateway, what happened at school today, art, my mom, my dad, his parents, grief, a job, maggie, germantown, new orleans, wayne, annnd i think thats it. it was a nice conversation. i told her how i felt about germantown and i shared information my ex homeschooled friend told me. she said that they actually have art classes and music, too. kinda like a private tutor but theres about 5 kids in a class. sounds great to me. anyways, i said that with the job, i could pay for gateway. mmhm. she said "we'll see".

dane cooks funny

...i do miss new orleans.

and i apologize if u hate me. i'm sorry i don't know when to act 'right'. so that everyone else is happy. and i'm so 'mean' when i'm around her. because she makes me so sad, right? i get so frustrated!!!! its like everything we do is wrong. and i'm sorry i've finally found someone to talk to!! i can't open myself up to anyone who asks 'whats wrong'! it doesn't work like that! i trust her and shes helped me more than anyone will ever understand. i've been goin through some shit. i didn't think new orleans would bring back that many memories. if i cry, ITS NOT SHARON!!!! she hasn't given me any reason to cry! but she has given me a shoulder to cry on. and she listens. i'm not saying that u all wouldn't listen, but....its just very easy to talk to her and shes always there for me...i know i havn't really tried to talk to anyone else, but what can you say? 'oh, i'm sorry' 'it'll be okay' 'i understand'...i'm tired of hearing that! and you'll just feel akward. just like i would. i have a comfort with her. christ, i can't...say what i want to say because i don't know how to say it and it all builds up and then someone says something to trigger it and i cry. expecially when (it feels like) everyones yelling at us in public over something i didn't even realize because you never say anything!! i'm sorry i didn't say 'thank you' for the beer! i'm sorry i didn't see you were sick and shivering on my couch. i'd explain why everything happened the way it did but it would be pointless because we can't redo it. just know it was nothing towards you. i didn't mean to be a bitch! and fuck, i didn't even know what i did untill kyra had to come tell me! so i'm unintentionally being a bitch. communtication could help. if theres a problem, talk about it. no use in being pissed about it and then finally exploding. because i can't take the feeling...almost throwing up on some street of new orleans from idunnoknowwhat...over-emotional or someshit. happened at school today too. ...i didn't mean to hurt anyones feelings...i'm sorry